That's pretty much it. He's in town, but not really working. Stuff has come up. I'm freaking out. I left 2 messages - one kind of raging and crying, one trying to calm myself down telling him what I thought he would say to get me grounded. I asked him to e-mail, but I really don't know if he's checking messages or e-mails. I guess we didn't leave it very clear after my last session.

I just have to get through it minute by minute. And it sucks.