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Originally Posted by wolfsong
We're going to feel this our whole life...how can that be reconciled?...life is a cruel joke...a prison sentence.I won't feel this in a bit...I am good at that....yet it's there....crawling up from the pits of my core and lingering far behind my face.It is't going anywhere is it?I guess the best I can do is put a mask over it and try to exist in the mask.But the mask is sooo thin....just a veil....if I only felt my own shi' it'd be cool but i feel everything around me...other people...I feel their stuff..I feel all the color around me the wildlife...the planet...music...poetry...whatever...it is sooo overwhelming....we really do struggle to stay...just don't want to impact our son...he is so terribly wonderfully magnificent....it is for him we stay.....if u pray...just please send one up for me....I need to be sewn back together...for reals.....(Not gunna let me erase thhis...I wan to but I wont.I dont want pity...hate pity...just a prayer or a warm thought sent up to the heavens...even silently)TY Wolf....P.S I don't hate you mommy ,please help russ from where you are mom ...my hands are tied..I cant help him...M Cmas
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((((wolfsong))))))))
I don't think you need pity, I think your incredibly strong and even more so for allowing your post to stay. Sometimes allowing our vulnerabilities to manifest is the most healing work that will ever embark upon as hard as that is for us to see at present! Although it may be hard there is a part of you that needs to be heard so that healing can begin in some form some way. Your amazing for just allowing whatever healing process needs to be. The way your described your son in another thread was nothing more then very intelligent and strong which shows how wonderful and BRIGHT and NURTURING and PROTECTIVE you are!!! ....Your amazing just from the wisdom and information that you offer others here from the short time that I have been here I have learned allot from reading your post. I hope that you will find the comfort and warmth that you need to continue to allow whatever needs to be heard to continue to come out...Just want to say I am proud of whatever inner self of you that allowed itself to be heard! I am sure that as hard as it was there is a relief in it? Safe hugs if okay
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the past is my future. the pain is my emotion that is my prison. what I feel is as confusing as to why I feel it?
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