Hi. I haven't been on except to lurk for awhile. Things were going ok, not good, but ok. I took on helping a freind move (major cleaning) to get $ for Christmas. Anyway we are doing alright.

but, my sister set me off. I got upset and do what I do, clean. From top to bottom. I was in the kitchen had all the cabinets cleaned out and was washing them when I banged my head on the corner of the door. It blead a good bit and I have a nice scab from that which I pick off. Not only with my fingers but with tweezers, sewing needles, etc. It is now about 4 times the original size. But now that has started me using sewing needles to just pick at my scalp and pull skin off. I have scabs all over head now.

Which I have now been picking at and causing them to bleed all week. several times a day I am sitting on the bathroom sink, picking at my scalp. The scabbing is horrible and they ooze and burn. And I can't seem to stop.

I have met with my t several times, we have talked about why my sister set me off. How to take care of the places so they don't infect. I just need to stop and don't have the strength or even the want to right now. I'm enjoying this sensation of my head feeling like it is burning. Even as I write, I am picking at the scabs.

Thank you for reading... I just needed to write about it.