I am dianosed with "borderline" and narcissistic personality disorders. It's still hard for me to deal with it, cuz it makes me sound near psychotic. And I'm still struggling with being labeled a "narcissist" it's kind of a nasty label. Why must they label us? Just treat us. So yes I know what you're going through. Like you said you hate the term personality disorder, I hate knowing my personality is disordered, cuz it's not. Eh oh well... I've ranted enough.