Elysium,
I'm sorry you feel so ignored? invalidated? by your Mother.
I have a similar relationship with my brother. It's like we're living in parrallel universes. About the only conversation he feels safe having with me is about work, anything about my music, my MH, my Alcoholism, my friends & it's like this awkward silence descends. I think in my brother's case, it's that my life is so different from anything he's experienced, about the only thing we have in common is that we've both done MBA's, that he just honestly doesn't know how to relate, so he takes the easy way and doesn't ask. It still hurts but I can kind of understand it now.
Maybe your Mother is the same way-you're leading a life very different from hers (religion & sexuality) and maybe she just doesn't know what to say.
I hope someday your family is able to acknowledge you for who you are.
--splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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