kyle, i've been through a similar identity crisis. happiness is first obtained through being honest with yourself. when you make your decision, you are risking to "feel." feelings aren't bad to have. it makes you human. make your mistakes and learn WHO YOU ARE. you aren't so different than the rest of us. enjoy the JOURNEY you are on; don't give up!

<font color=purple> Man can will nothing unless he has first understood that he must count no one but himself; that he is alone, abandoned on earth in the midst of his infinite responsibilities, without help, with no other aim than the one he sets himself, with no other destiny than the one he forges for himself on this earth. Jean-Paul Sartre </font color=purple>