I know how you feel Though my cause of depression is stuttering. I went to public school my whole life. There were countless times where my stuttering made me feel so worthless.My stuttering have gotten to the point where i cant even say happy birthday to my mom.Just cant get any words out.There were a lot of times where i was asked a question in class and i couldn't say anything at all, so i just froze.I got a job at age 16, it was a huge step for me.I worked as a cook cause i couldn't work the cashier or Drive thru cause of my speech disorder.I also had family that didn't understand me at all so i felt like i had no one to talk to.Over the years i got cold, to the point where i would stop talking to a friend and feel nothing about it.I stopped getting attached to people.Theres dreams i want to follow but its nearly impossible cause of this curse of silence.Stuttering really is hard and it leads to many different feelings Your not alone though. Theres people out there that feel like you. Message me whenever you want to talk.