Thank you guys I really appriciate your advice and kind words. I am glad your here. I really helps to have someone who understands what I am going thru and has already been there and done that. You guys seem to have a lot of experiance with the T docs. So my wife tells me I was wrong about my doc. I guess he is a psycho therapist. I don't know why I thought he was a psychologist. That is why she wants me to see a pschyciatrist. She thinks I would get a better diagnosis. Even my psycho therapist said he wanted me to see one of his colleages for a better diagnosis. I have been told by others not to use the word try. and bpd2 you said it too. I guess I need to stop trying to get better and start doing it. I will start keeping a journal to document my mood swings. I am such a hardhead sometimes. I know hiding my feelings and holding back from the doctors isn't helping me either. I need to get over my fear that the navy will boot me out on my head and just get the help I need and let things fall where the may. I have said this all before but when it comes time to do it I usually feel silly saying these things to the doctor. I feel dumb that I have these problems. I find it hard to trust them with my thoughts. I feel uncomforatable talking about these things. I really hate when I tell him something and he says well everyone goes through that sometimes and it makes me feel like I am overeacting to some normal thing and then I don't want to say anything else. Then I feel silly and believe I don't even need to be there and just want to leave. Find it hard to tell him anything else. Feel like he will just say well thats normal everyone feels that way sometimes. I have a lot to get over I know. Thank you guys again. It really means a lot to me that you guys are here.