I do understand this, I've terminated with a couple of T's and just knew it was time and that I could make it on my own. That warmth I think will always be there if he leaves the door open for you to come back, it's something that does not change with the ending of therapy. It's like it stays with you somehow. I think some of us could stay in therapy forever but that's not really the point of it, we are supposed to grow and internalize their caring.