I'm tired of it. I'm tired of depressions coming and going. I hate being a stepmom. I hate it, I swear she hates me. 10 years old now, she used to be a doll, I guess she's just growing up and doesn't need me anymore.
My pdoc raised my Topamax from 175mg to 250mg and took me from 10mg of Prozac to going off of it completely. This was about 3 weeks ago.
I feel like crap! I am think I am suicidal, I think about it when I am driving alone. I cry alot. My husband took his daughter down south to see her mom for the holidays. He will be home tomorrow, but I am here alone now. I've felt so bad that I finally just popped a Prozac yesterday. And today.
I also read that Topamax can cause suicide ideations. I've never experienced this before with Topamax, been on it for years, so I guess I am just depressed and need the Prozac. This happens every single time I try to go off it, I should know by now.
I hate feeling like this, especially around the holidays.
And I got my haircut, and it's too darn short, so I am wearing a hat! I hate it!
I just feel like poop, and needed to let it out. I'm going to cry now.