i was really messed up for a long time on alcohol & crack. the other nite i was watchin an old intervention i recorded & this sweetheart of a guy was hooked on oxys & to watch the horrible withdrawals he was goin thru when he didnt have any. i am so sorry for what u went thru with your friend & now your other friend is in so deep. when i watched that show & read your post i always thank God because if it wasnt for His strength & grace i would have been dead a long time ago. my sis in law seems to get in deeper instead of getting help. well not to mention the drunken drug induced dramas that have taken place since october when my mother in law died while everyone was in the middle of planning her burial we found out her & her boyfriend were in the back of the house shootin up fentynal. i took my childs finegran with dextromorphan for cough there there was only a small amount gone out of the bottle next thing i know it gets guzzled i remember bein on alcohol real bad when i was 25 & my beloved pawpaw died im now 36 but there comes a time i dunno there just comes a time period at the fork in the road some make it some dont so sad so much addiction around here & everywhere girls stand up on the road & will do anything with anyone to support their habit to keep from gettin sick i havent drank for 4 years & havent smoked crack since june & have struggled with my benzo script for a couple of months but im honest with myself i pray 4 God to help me take em like im supposed to i have too much to live 4 to let a slip completely screw me up & every now i then i get an urge to use crack but it passes with the Lords strength. i just wanted to clarify im by no means tryin to be judgmental bout sis in law cuz goodness knows i messed up here lately with taken more klons than i was supposed to i love her she is such a funny lovable person i cant stand to see her in pain & pain shes causing others. the other nite my hubby was over there & there was a huge drunken scene i was on the phone with him & could hear her screamin she missed her mom so much & then just starts screamin at her dad who is 72 & sayin she wanted to be with mom im scared she will get so messed up one of these times she will kill herself after all is said & done all u can do is pray for them & put them in Gods hands. theres a boy couple years older than me & hes dyin from cirrhosis from alcoholism & when mom in law was alive i would get so upset & she would tell me u know yourself unless u want help theres nothin u can do cuz she was there thru my alcoholism & gettin sober at 25 my liver was swollen & doc said id be dead at 35 if i didnt quit couple of short relapses in early 30s but DONE. took a little longer with the crack but God says in His Word He has plans to prosper me not to harm me so DONE Praise God im here work out all the time read my Bible have healthy 3 & 13 yr old girls dont have to wake up with shakes & puke before i get a beer down me such a lie of the Devil all of it a waste of the gift of life im so very thankful 4 my life today Merry Christmas