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Old Dec 24, 2010, 02:59 AM
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Originally Posted by Baltazar View Post
I feel as if I don't have a clue to what I actually want. I let those around me chose what makes them happy and then I conform to please them.

It is my instinct.

In reality, I have no idea what I want out of life. I just let life happen to me.

I shift and change so quickly never knowing who I am.

Guess that is why I keep people at a distance and really connect with anyone.
I feel exactly the same. I change my mind about what I want/who I am so often I cant keep up with myself, let alone the people around me. I had this idea a few years ago that I wanted to be a hairdresser coz my bf was one and EVERYONE loved him. My parents liked him more than me. Everyone was just SO interested in him and I was this loser who clung onto him. So i thought if i had the same job as him and the same goals people would like me too! The next minute i hated his guts and hated all hairdressers!
And to this day my parents still ask when Im gonna do my hairdressing course, despite the fact I have literally changed my mind 1000 times! That's not how it works folks- get with the program!