So for a Doctor to "experiment" with the right combo or amount is pretty hard. I just think that based on your one ordeal with the non reaction to your suicidal concerns was a little irresponsible that's all.

Of course I am basing that on that one incident you would have a lot more to consider.

And I totally understand your handling of those in your life. I used to have a lot more friends and now I am a bit of a loner with a bunch of acquaintances outside the fam.