Ok, so nothing has happened again, and I still feel like crap. I don't understand this. I really need to see my therapist, but I called her and never heard back, well she did call, but I wasn't home so I missed her call. Damn, I'm so tired of all of this. I just want to go far away, and stay there for a really long time, like forever...or until I die which ever comes first.

<font color=green>I smile because I have no idea what's going on.</font color=green>