I think, sunny, that you have a wonderful relationship with your T and nothing is ever going to change that! The background comfort and warmth you describe can stay with you whether you see T or not. It reminds of my T telling me that the "blanket of love" I attribute to HER lives inside of me and I can access it, she tells me, at any time. She says she is with me, too.

I know that's what you have with your T. His hugging you in the middle of the session and in the cafe illustrate his warmth and caring for you. That's something you can hold onto forever, isn't it?

I've seen you grow and change in the time I've "known" you on PC. It seems to me that you are stable and healthy enough to do without therapy, that you can make it on your own. However, there's nothing wrong with continuing to see your T when your schedule permits. My former T thought monthly "check-ins" would be good for me. Therapy doesn't have to permanently end. What about discussing this very matter with your T the next time you do have your session? He probably has ideas about it. But, it seems like, though you haven't called it termination, what you've been doing is the gradual cutting down of sessions which is what termination is all about. And you've been doing it successfully!