It sounds like there are issues in other family members. It is not all your fault. Try not to take it personal and realize that they may have their own issues they are not discussing with you. And you are not alone, there is always PC when you feel lonely. Join chat and find someone to talk to about how you feel or just about nothign in general. It helps me a lot when I get lonely. There are wonderful people here that love to talk lol. And you life is worth living even though you cannot see it. You have a purpose, give yourself the chance to find out what that is