My abusive mom died in 2004 of cancer. I did and still do grieve. I wanted nothing to do with her before her death, but now that she's gone... well, she was still my mom, no matter what she did. And I think it's so hard becuase now I'll never have the chance to have a normla mother-daughter relationship with her. Not that that was ever a possibility anyway, but now there is absolutely definitely noc hance anymore. And that's what I craved. Having a normal mom. My mom died rather suddenly, and it's still incredibly hard on me.