I have so much on my plate right now. Thank god my aunt got some good news...a miracle really...she's gonna make it, but I'm still under a ton of pressure. I'm trying to go from being in despair to being ok--quickly. But it doesn't work that way. So, I'm really moody right now.

My bf keeps trying to joke around with me, though, which doesn't work. He tries kissing me and touching me and all that crap. He goes around the apartment saying no one loves him except his mom...crap like that. Anyways, while we were eating he was going on and on about how great his family ate...eating meat at every meal and all that crap and how big of meals his aunt made and everything...pretty much making me feel like crap. I'm sorry I can't buy food like his family, or make meals like his family! I can't eat meat all the time because my stomach can't handle it! I get really sick when I eat meat so I try not to eat the stuff!

Right now I can't handle this relationship. I know it doesn't sound like much but with dealing with the stuff i'm dealing with, it's quite a lot for me! I just want to go into hiding or something for awhile...I need solitude right now...

He thinks flaunting himself, or kissing me, or telling me how much he loves me is gonna make the situation better, but it's not...it's actually making me quite annoyed! He doesn't get it! When I'm in a bad mood like I am right now...just leave me the heck alone!