Hello

My diagnosis is depression with panick attacks. My T thinks that I might also have and ADHD and probably bipolar depression....Well, since I know myself pretty well and after I did a lot of readings about BPD and ADHD, T is probably right but....she is still "working on my diagnosis".

The problem is.... I should see my T next Moday...and I just think this is pointless.

I can`t open myself to her... I tryed but I realised that I don`t express my thoughts and feelings as I should.

This is not her fault. It is like I don`t give her a chance to help me.

Usualy, I feel good when I speak to somebody...I can see the exit, I see how to solve problems...my horor starts when I stay alone, by myself. And... I can`t describe to therapist what my problem really is cause when speak tu her I am acting...like I SHOULD feel OK...

On the other side, I am blocked thinking that I have "only few minutes" to speak. OK, is not few but I can`t concentrate...

And I don`t know what to do..Should I write something and than show it to T? Something like diary?

Sorry for my bad English. I would appreciate any answer.