Thanks for your words crislsoul. I've been struggling with depression, anxiety and isolation for decades and it's getting worse in my fifties. My creativity has fallen away and I don't want to do anything anymore. I fear my dog is absorbing my mood and is becoming aggressive toward other dogs. I got angry at him for that today and he sulked. I felt even worse and I've been crying all day. My last 2 dogs were dog-aggressive. I think I'm too screwed up to be a good dog owner. Dogs are sensitive. I feel toxic to any beings around me. This is probably the wrong forum for this, sorry.