hi frwlkr, and welcome!

I'm sorry for what you and yours have been through and how much your life has been affected. I wish you more than well.

I do agree that PTSD is a real possibility and that a therapist could be of great benefit to you. Talking with a therapist has greatly helped me with the intenseness and duration of active PTSD.

I wish you luck. Keep talking to us. We care.

KD