I relate to those feelings too. I've had depression, ADD and anxiety since childhood. Things have gotten so much worse in the past few years, since menopause. I used to be driven with creativity and have lost interest in most everything. I live alone, don't work, survive on disability income, and my life feels unreal and unlived most of the time. I hope that you find something that can help ground and comfort you. I wish that for myself and all others who are also suffering.