Hi Catlovers141,
I just wanted to acknowledge your need. You certainly deserve to be cared about and nurtured. You shouldn't have to be mothering your mother either or taking on family problems. College and depression are stressful enough. I hope that you can find healthy sources of support over the school break. I went to an alanon meeting yesterday and found others who like me were depressed and alone for the holidays. There was support there. I see you're in Mass. I'm in Western Mass. Best wishes.
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Originally Posted by Catlovers141
I wasn't sure where to put this so sorry if it is in the wrong place...
I am am 19 year old college student and I'm home on holiday break. Before I went home I was having issues with not being cared for, and it seems like it has just intensified since I came home. I have always been in the position of helping my mother, having her confide in me, etc. But right now it feels like too much. Last time this year was the hardest time of year for me and it led to an episode of depression that continued to affect me when I got back to classes.
I am bulimic, self-injure, and have a dissociative disorder. I am very worried about these things coming up again because of everything that is going on. My younger sister is having problems at school and with her friends and my parents don't know how to handle it.
I have a therapist and I will be in touch with her over my break (which is three weeks long) but this uncared for feeling seems like it is so generalized. I don't feel like I am getting enough support from family, friends, and even though I have a great therapist things just seem missing and I don't feel like I am getting enough of what I need.
I'm not sure what I am asking here. Just needed to talk, I guess. Having some trouble with self-care and dealing with being at home all this time. Would love to hear from anyone.
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