-puts ears back and looks down and away-
The only way to get professional help is to convince my mom that I need it. And I'm not telling her what's going on in my head. Becuase I can't talk to her about anything. It seems like she either thinks I'm lying about it, or she doesn't give a ****.

And professionals are really just some of Them. Professionals can't be trusted, either....

I don't know. Perhaps I'll just coast. See if it gets unbearable.

And if it does, then.... I'll have snapped and it won't matter anyway.