Hi and welcome to the site..I read all you have been through and it sounds a lot like PTSD complex kind to me....I AM NOT a doc but you have had trauma after trauma....You may want to post this also in PTSD ..I have no words of wisdom but you are in my prayers..I hope you reconsider seeing a T at like a free or sliding scale clinic and maybe don't change your med dose but I don't know what else you can do...much of what has goe on you are having a reactive depression to and that is normal

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