I've been alone for most holidays most years. I always hope it'll be different next year, but I guess I'm not the greatest networker or friend. It still baffles me. I like people, care about people, have been told I'm fun, warm, witty, etc., but I'm still alone most of the time. Living on disability for depression, unemployed, and still single at 55 puts me on the fringe of society. Or that's how it feels. I volunteered at a community Thanksgiving dinner and will probably do that tomorrow. I can try to be of some use, and be around others.