I really want to share the texts she sent me with you guys, I hope nobody minds. I guess I need to feel validated.

*edit* just for context, here's the last text I sent last night, which she's replying to:

me: I'm just me, with problems of my own and my kids are here and it's kind of a holiday. My therapist is out of town and I have
to do what I can to keep myself healthy without her and in the midst of all the huge changes going on in my life. Try to look at it from my point of view.

her reply this morning:

M: Now it's other ****ing Xmas. i will leave you and your ****ING DBT all to you. I have listened to you for enless hours about your issues over the last few years. I cared, never once told u I'm not your theripist. your safty blanket is out of town...**** give her life back. i keep forgetting its always about u. i won7t bother u again, so do me the same favior. Have a drama free day with your kids. I hope they have a great day. I won't be going to the support group anymore. i'm finished with all this BS. BS,BS! merry ****ing, ****. **** christmas, since there is no christ how is that being you.!

my reply: Wow. Nice way to behave on Xmas morning. Your lord must be so proud.

I told you several times last night to call me if you wanted to talk. I don't know what response other than that you expected or would have accepted from me. You are so deep in emotion mind I don't think you are even thinking straight. You'll be pretty embarrassed later over the way you have behaved today. I encourage you to call T and continue seeing her. And yes, she is a security object for me. And that's okay. That's her job. That's what she wants. That's how I learn it is okay to trust someone. Maybe you should try it. I can't understand how you can do two years in dbt and not learn anything.