thanks Cebbie and sleeps. I am told by my everloving spouse that all I do lately is talking in my sleep. He can hear and understand words and know that I am very distressed. I quess on Monday when I felt like one of my only cloices was to drive off a cliff somewhere was a good indicator that I had hit a wall. THUMP!. My memory is scaring me. Or lack thereoff. I know it is stress. Hey sleeps, Beastly comes from my friend Jane, she would say;"you must feel absolutely Beastly". Yup my dear Jane, I feel beastly and I wish you were here to smother hug me and that the old house still stood and I could tuck in next to the fire and feel the warmth and safety I never knew until I knew you. I'd watch you hop around doing things and you'd tell me to sitt still and relax. I learned what that word meant in your home.

I will live, Debbie, I feel like I will never work again. It is very complex. A lot of history. And yes I am so tired. Sleeps, Maybe we can both lose our homes and live in a yurt somewhere. I hope you like all of my creatures.