ruin my christmas day...my mother has always been emotionally abusive/neglectful and just plain mean sometimes..i have worked very hard to forget the things i am going through for today and just enjoy that it is christmas,,and i got to enjoy a couple of days having all of my 4 children with me,including half of today,,anyway my mother was being nice today and had not done or said anything negative all morning,,so i let my guard down..then wham ,out of the blue she started bringing up my ex boyfriend whom tried to attacked me repeating over and over he was going to kill me...asking if i would go meet him in secrecy for christmas behind everybodys back..is she crazy! im going to court in january so he will go to jail and i can be safe and move on to a better future..i have not given her any reason to suspect i would..geez i will rarely step outside because of fear of him,,and she has seen the hell i have gone through and the extreme fear in the past 2 months..she did it to hurt me..then as if that wasnt enough,when my ex husband came to pick up my older 3 children she had to go on and tell me about how he is such a good guy and that she had given him a big christmas hug and he hugged her back,,and that i should think of trying to win him back,,again, is she crazy! i spent 18 yrs in a very unhappy relationship with him(beginning at age 14)..and finally left when he i caught him with my so-called best friend..he may not have physically abused me but he was not good for me...now for the past hour my ptsd is kicking in and i cant shake it..my neck is burning from memories of the attack from my ex boyfriend , and she had to remind me of the christmases i spent enjoying family gatherings with my ex husband,it wasnt perfect but i wasnt alone and i did like his family..why did she do this,,its like it makes her feel good to cause me emotional pain,or boost her own .. something..i tried so hard to stay positive and feel good about myself and giving my children a happy christmas..i am now full of anger and sadness and cant stop the ptsd,,she is an idiot i have had to live with my entire life..i am so sick of her words that she says on purpose,,and yes she knows exactly what she is doing,,she does it on purpose..i cant wait until the trial is over so i can move far away from her!!! i dont like the word hate but that is how i feel right now about her