It's not exactly si, but I've been scratching a lot lately. I have some sort of skin athsma or whatever, and it's getting pretty bad. My dad took me to the derma several times already, each time she gave me some cream or meds or both. It got better the last time. It was almost healed, and then one day I lost control and scratched and now it's horrible again. I felt like all my efforts had gone to waste, like all my hard work, not to mention the doctor's and my dad's, went down the drain. I don't want to tell my dad again. I hate the way he would look at me when he found out I had been scratching. I don't want to go back and waste more time and money. I always think it will heal by itself if I only stop scratching. It probably would, but I never stop long enough.

In other news, I finally 'cut' (super lightly) again 3 days ago after another month or so. But the scratching is way worse. I don't hold back as much when I use my bare hands.