Thanks Mustkeepjob32
I agree, Death is a part of life, and it can be at the most unexpected moments of life, it's reality.
But why am I getting blamed, not only by my father but other people, he's even got my uncle believing it.
I just wish he would stop ! He has no idea what he's doing to me mentally. I know it's not my fault but when he drills these words in my head it's just like, maybe, maybe I am a curse. I just dont know what to believe.
The last time he brung it up, he said the most worst thing ever to me, well he said it in the most hurtful words "I can't believe your mother had you, she brung your dumbass in and took out a wonderful man, you should be ashamed that you where even born". It's hard to hear, even worse for me, but it's true.
And I do not have a Pdoc, or a T, my father would never allow that.
He knows me we'll, I am strong on the outside, but weak on the inside
And hell, My mother might have brung me into this world, be helped create me.