Right now it's 13.50pm on Boxing Day. I'm layed upstairs in bed at my boyfriend's parent's house. I haven't got up yet, my boyfriend got up and showered and has gone downstairs a little while ago. But I feel so depressed and low. I don't wanna move, just wanna hide but I feel so damn rude and disrespectful being up here. I am trying to get up, honestly I am. But, I don't want people to see me not in a good mood. I don't wanna feel awkward. When I'm feeling low, I tend to hide... to protect others as well as myself really.
I don't know what to do. Longer I stay here, the worse I'll feel and the more rude it is and because I know it's rude the more I beat myself up. Why now!? Why today!?