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Old Dec 26, 2010, 02:32 PM
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Originally Posted by ladymacabethadmunsen View Post
Sometimes, my therapist would call my flash backs fantasies.
So i guess after seeing you only a few times he already sized you up by telling you oh no your flashbacks are all in your head i know i wewnt to school for this. (so since i have read your previous posts) he has done nothing but insult you...what a wonderful therapist he's a winner
He agreed that i sing to him but after my singing he focused on was much more on how alluring i looked to him - and that his feeling while watching me sing MEANT that i had tempting behaviors that need to be addressed. He hinted that the assault i have been through happened because of those so called luring unconscious behaviors. he keeps bringing up how alluring you are too him...who's haveing the fanttasies here you or himm...hmmmm i say him..is that what's all on his mind? yes what a wonderful therapist blame the victim...this is why a lot of victims don't talk becasue os people like him

From the very beginning - first official session after making diagnoses - he stated ( SEEING ME SECOND TIME IN HIS LIFE) that i have a lot of sexual fantasies. are you talking about these sexual fantasies to him, or is he again tryign to put words in your mouth to think that you have a problem that you don't have,...he sure is stuck on the subject of sex a lot

Last week he said "we have the heat on, so you can take your jacket off" I did have a sweater beneath the jacket and i know that it is like "make yourself comfortable" but still i felt warning signs all over my body when he said it. wow! what a way to start the conversation "if you haven't noticed i put the heat on in here so umm yeah take off your coat" i wonder what he was really thinking? i think you know when you are hot and need to take off your coat..you don't need to be told!

When i meant to just tell him my experience of him he smiled and cynically said "thank you for analyzing me" When i told him i did not mean to analyze him and i knew it was my subjective experience. He said i was defending myself and escaping. Then he apologizes but it did not help my feelings.
can't anyone apologize without someone looking into why there was an apology just take the apology! this is meant towards him not u, i reread what i said and noticed how it didn't sound right!

After diagnosing me with DID in addition to PTSD, and doing such wonderful work with my selves, self esteem - well at least helping me - directing and reminding me here and there - today he told me - "i don`t think you have DID you have PTSD we will start exposure therapy. "
he sure seems to be jerking your chain, he diagnoses you with A than does work with you about it, than after all that work says you don't have it...sorry to say this but huge red flags keep popping up, and i don't know what he is trying to set you up for but it's something. he is pushing and pulling you in all directions and manipulating your words. i personally would not start any more whatever therapy with him!
uuuugh!!!!
sorry if i seemed a little harsh i just recognize a lot of the signs he is putting up and i think it's time for you to get out, before you become another victim.

Last edited by racee; Dec 26, 2010 at 03:09 PM.
Thanks for this!
Irine