Tiberius, I've had the same reactions that you're having. I've been in therapy off-and-on for about 10 years, and I probably spent much of the first four or five years obsessing about whether my T really really liked me, or whether it was just fake, and why was I torturing myself and setting myself up by being so attached to someone who didn't really like me back.

And then at some point I realized that those were my issues, the issues that I was bringing into therapy. And I accepted that she just really does like me. And that, even so, the boundaries will always be there. And figuring that out somehow made therapy a lot easier for me.

I don't know what the issues are for you. For me they had to do with longing for intimacy and also fearing it, and for me much of that resulted for my upbringing.

All I can say, I don't think your feelings are abnormal. I don't even think they're unusual. But they can be worked through.

Good luck,
-Far