I'm trying to brainwash myself to go see my mother for Christmas.

As a daughter, I will feel very guilty if I don't go and I will think about it all the time and if I go ...........I don't know which sword she will carry to stab my heart this time.
With all these years that went by I still cannot block her words. You would think I would have learned and would not bother with what she says but no, she gets me everytime.

After all I am her daughter

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