Tiberius, I can relate to a lot of what you are experience. I have similar difficulties with trusting my therapist and the nature of the therapeutic relationship. I do think that on some level it is fake, that my therapist is just playing a role and saying the things that she thinks would provoke the desired response and ultimately help me. I do have the sense of being a bit of a lab rat at times. All that being said, I do think she cares about helping me and I also believe that she enjoys her job. So yes, I am a job for her but she cares about doing a good job and being a good therapist and that is all that really matters in the end.

I am not really sure how you can get past the "fakeness" of the therapeutic relationship. I can't seem to get past it even though intellectually I understand why it is necessary and how it can be beneficial. And the thought the therapy may not be for everyone (and maybe not for me) has crossed my mind. I think emilyjeanne is right, trust is essential for therapy to work and if you have trust issues (the way I do and you seem to as well), it can take a long time to get to the point where you can enjoy the benefits. It can be very difficult to persevere through all the doubts and fears and pain.