I have something to tell my T and I'm trying to put it into perspective. How important is it? It sounds traumatic but I'm sure it's not unusual. In the light of that session where I told T I was scared and was 5 years old, and she SAW me looking scared, I am wondering, though.

What happened is I just found out that when I was in kindergarten my brother used to walk me home at lunchtime. He told me that once his teacher kept him 5 or 10 minutes after dismissal until he "confessed" to something he didn't do so he could leave to get me.

He said that the kids had all left the school grounds already (I think in those days everyone went home for lunch at noon and returned at 1 p.m.) and I was hunched up on the stairs, outside, terrified and crying. He said it was the saddest thing he ever saw, and he was crying as he typed it to me today. He was surprised that I hadn't remembered this incident at all.

I don't think I'm the first chid to have been kept waiting anywhere. But I was shy and sensitive; I probably wouldn't have even considered going back into the school to ask where my brother was. I'm not saying this is the answer to my problems, but the way my brother describes it, it does sound traumatic for me.

Another time in therapy I said I saw myself alone, in a heap, crying. It's very weird! A few other things happened when I was 5; kindergarten was scary for me, but I never knew anything about this incident before.

What does anyone think?