I don't exactly know why... but a couple days ago I began to cut again. I used to, slightly, when I was younger, but never really bad. But a few days ago I found this razor thing in a sewing kit, and I just... decided to test it. Well, it is apparently pretty sharp, and now I began to use it to cut myself. I noticed I feel worse than I did before I started this, but I just can't seem to stop. I also decided to opt out of my therapist appointment today, and I don't want to leave the house. I'm afraid someone will find out, and get on to me.. I really don't know how to explain it. I could just throw away the razor, but I lost it the other day and freaked out.. I just don't know what to do. Does anyone have any suggestions? I am new to this forum, and hope that I am doing this right. I should probably mention that there is a lot going on in my life right now. My dad has been out of work for two years, my insurance just stopped covering me (which is part of the reason I decided to not go to the therapist. I was afraid I would get a bill), I don't have any friends... and my dad is ill. :/ I just.. don't feel I can handle all of this.