If you know the story, and how awful it is you'll know why this is such a big deal.

(if not, www.ryanstory.org if that site isn't right sew me)
We saw this presentation last year, and were heartbroken. This time however our hearts were crushed as the boy's father spoke at our school.
It was a huge trigger for me, as well as one of my friends, and I am actually kind of surprised that I have no new scars. I talked to someone about how I felt. Someone I usually don't talk to, and all of a sudden I got this comfort from talking to him. Telling me he cared about my well being, and such things.

But I am very nervous/confused about this. I want to SI very badly but at the same time I do not. I love this person, but I don't want to. I'm too scared of what's going to happen if I do...

Very muddled,
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