I crashed. I caved. my legs are covered with cuts and with her name.
I am not sure what got ahold of me but i know the shorts i was wearing last night are trash. covered in blood.
I am so sorry to everyone who i have just let down. I hope Yall can forgive me. My therapist was right I am scared to lose but its even worse when i didn't see it coming and i wake up and shes gone. I fought for her and i can't get her back.
She stopped me from cutting last time and now I don't see a reason not to.
I really have no idea what I'm doing I'm just so lost and the light at the end of the tunnel was me moving back to what I have always known.