((((((((((((myself)))))))))))))))

we WILL achieve our individual healings. of this, I have no doubt. healing represents something to each of us, slightly varying, I'm sure. however, i feel we will achieve this. so many ppl have watched and shared in my growth over this last year. it's truly been one heck of a journey. there is still quite a bit of the road ahead for me, but is appears managable.

i think that i'm just now getting to the point where i can actually clearly define what healing represents to me. before i could just tell t, "i want to own my current existence without meltdowns and losing time." i'm finding out that scheduled "melting-losing time" is quite ok! i'm changing my view of healing. to me, at this point, healing for me would be to have all parts of myself feel safe enough to share my present and their past...all right here up front and know that that was then and this is now...good, bad and ugly. to me, that would be healing. i'm learning to soothe these parts of me that need a "little extra" to be here. right now it's quite enjoyable. i'm learning that i don't have to be 100% 100% of the time and people still care about me. i'm learning so much that's leading towards my necessary healing.

thank you for sharing your journey and goals.

what a thoughtful, honest, heartfelt post, myself.

KD