Ok, 4th post of the day. I am trying to stay busy until I can go to sleep.

How many of your here have actually made up friends?- pretended that you have one, or more than you actually have?

I have done it casually to people who don't know any better. The problem is- right now I can't just invent them out of nowhere for my husband or family.

I want to use them as a reason to go somewhere.. to make it seem like I actually have some kind of a life. But I don't. I am pathetic.

And they know that.. they know I don't have friends and it makes them feel bad and so I feel even guiltier. But in a way, I don't even want any friends.. it is too difficult for me.