Jazzy,
I read something today and I thought of you. The words were on impermanence and how it is so hard to know that the only thing for certain in life is that things will change. Man, that does not sit well with me. Talk about a core issue. The book also talked about with a gain there is always a loss. That is my hope for you Jazzy, that through this loss of your t you will gain huge in the long run. I sincerely hope that you will find another t that meets your needs and exceeds the t relationship that you are leaving behind. I hope that after you get settled in (or maybe to help you settle in???) to colllege you will take a deep breath and try again. Find the courage to go for round two and see what happens. I think you can find a better match Jazz and you may find that the ending won't be so painful.