I broke down at work at the end of my shift in the locker room and started crying. I told another nurse (one that is older and I tell her a lot of stuff) what happened. Now I feel so stupid. I can't believe I let that slip. I definately don't like to let that sort of personal stuff out at work. I trust her that she won't repeat it but I still am mad at myself for you know, like cracking or something. I am upset because I am just going through a time capsule today, sometimes I feel 8 years old and back to old Christmases and other times I am just reliving looking at my SIL's mutilated face from last weekend. I sure wish I didn't have to go another week without my t. I am really in a mess right now.