(((((((((((((kacey)))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you have to keep going through this without your T.

I spent years and years not telling anyone anything about my childhood, or about what things are like now with my mom and her alcoholism. I was SO TRAINED to not tell, and if I told anyone ANYTHING, I just felt icky. I wanted the words back. I felt too vulnerable.

But I'm slowly learning that telling the right person something can be such a good thing. Now I HAVE told a couple of my friends about my mom's alcoholism, and somehow, it's taken the shame away a little bit. They haven't run around and told other people, or changed in their attitude towards me, or used it against me. They just know, and I can say something in passing about my mom and they get it and they still love me.

Be gentle with you. You needed to tell someone. It goes against everything we've been taught when we tell, but we NEED to go against everything we've been taught.

Thinking of you, ((((((((kacey))))))))