Thank you , thank you , thank you all for your replies. Have not been in a good space lately, complete with full blown hallucinations that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. On sui watch from my mental health team with daily contact and husband home so I'm not alone (stayn out of hospital so I can stay with baby). Been feeling like I'm going to loose my mind. Core has been so deeply depressed that it is seeping through the cracks into me. I just keep singing my little chant "keep moving forward". I want to touch my children's giggling faces in the morning and feel their touch in my heart. I don't know why I'm feeling some of core's stuff? Have too much on my plate. Thank you all for letting me know I'm not alone even though I feel it.
kp