This is such an informative, sharing thread. I've realized, like myself, that I had to not only recognize the trigger but find out why it became a trigger for it to not bother me as much. There are some that I know everything about, though, that still zap me...bad.

Finding out the "why's" and literally dissecting the situation was/is key to my awareness and understanding and, therefore, key to my unwanted/unproductive dissociation. Along with that, I had to cut all of me the break in understanding that "crap, that WAS bad!" The understanding was the final element for me to give compassion to these parts of me that are so injured. It lessens the pain and affect of the trigger greatly for me.

I'm now beginning to actually enjoy these parts of myself that have a hard time "being here". When I can actually sit in a VERY safe environment and share that time, it's more healing that anything I've done thus far. I just had three days of almost a continual sharing. My environment had to be mega safe, but the result is OH SO WONDERFUL. I feel as though I've come back from a resort where there was nothing but relaxation. I have so many more emotional resources than I did going into these three days. It's so amazing...the contrast...me four days ago and me today. there are downfalls...lol. Triggers can happen at any time, no matter how safe I think it is, I have to give what's needed, I can't do things well that I normally do (i.e. dinner, bills). However, I feel so much more complete. I feel softer and almost smarter. It's so hard to put into words.

I love being able to put down developments along this road...sharing this is so cool. Have people to connect to on the wild journey is the best!

Love,

KD