Yes, I do have a T.

I am on Medical Asssistance though, and am now down to therapy twice per month. So, I have one more week until I can go. It's as though being pushed down brings on these suicidal ideations for me. I pulled myself back completely from my bf last night...hid in my apartment with the doors locked and lights off. Went to sleep for 12 hours. Never wanting to waken and face SOS.

Just a hard time of my life, I know. Repeat it over and over, along with "life will improve", blah, blah blah...