hey there! im back. and no i havent really discussed anything like safe words with him. i planed too mabey discuss them if we actully ever met, becuase this whole thing still doesnt seem that real too me. yet.
we spoke a little last night, phone ****ed that's just about it. he text me this mourning saying this

''girls like u only come around once in a while, i hope were at least friends for a long time ''

im not really sure what to feel about that. i think he's mentioning the sex fact, not really me. im not really sure if i chould stay with a guy that likes me mostly because i can **** good; even if we did meet on a sex chat. i need a guy who will tell me that im beautiful no matter what i look like, even if he's lying. this guy dosent even really know the real me. i lie about so much **** when im on the phone with him, i even fake most of my phone orgasims(that doesnt mean what he's saying doesnt turn me on) i also lied about my weight. and about what im into. i dont know, im fake i guess. mostly becuase i dont even know what i really want