(((((Shezbut)))))

I struggle with this all too often. I don't have kids but I do feel that I'm second, third, forth best to everyone I know-none existent even. I get frustrated and soooo angry I don't know what to do with myself. I wish I wasn't like this too, but I can't seem to make it stop.

When I feel like this I usually call T (for lack of anyone who understands, or cares for that matter). T can usually bring me back or say something to calm me down. A week seems A LOOONG time right now before you see T again- maybe a quick call to say what is going on will help until you can discuss it fully?

As BPD2 says, this is all part of BPD- one of the worst parts IMO. I am so sorry you are feeling like this. Keep posting here, and I hope a few hugs will help